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Thank you to everyone for the birthday wishes, texts, calls and posts. First time I celebrated my birthday in two different time zones that lasted for two nights. It was a different birthday in many ways but it was filled with God winks and beautiful views. 

I listened to a sermon recently about the wedding and how they ran out of wine. The process that God takes us through, even though sometimes we don’t understand the process but it is for our good and for His glory. Jesus could have just snapped his fingers, thought it or spoke it and every vessel that was previously holding the wine could’ve been filled with wine immediately. But Jesus told them  to take the jars and go fill them with water. He didn’t say take one jar then go fill it and then distribute. He had them go multiple times to the well to draw out the water and once they were finished, and all of the jars were there, he turned it into wine and then they took it to the master of ceremonies for it to be tasted then distributed to the guests. And that just reminds me that everything is a process and there is a reason why God is doing what he’s doing. There is a purpose behind it even though we don’t have the knowledge to understand it, He will work it to our good.  

Where I am today it’s hard to believe that the best is yet to come because God’s best is no longer here, but I do know that God is good and I know that if it’s not good, then he is not finished yet and I know that he will bring all of what I am going through with the loss of Michael to my good and for his glory. Michael said, the best is now the last several months he was alive. It’s been hard to say that since he’s gone but I will stick with courage and say it. I can choose to enjoy each moment to the full. I will remain expectant in seeing the goodness of God. 

Suffering always happens, but not everyone gets something from their suffering. So in the midst of my season of suffering, the loss of Michael, I don’t want to miss out on what it is that God is wanting to teach me in this moment and in this season, I want to be rooted in God’s word and so much in his goodness that I get everything that God has for me in the suffering because I don’t wanna waste it. It’s too painful and it’s too hard for me not to get something out of it.

So I am taking my time, enjoying every moment, loving/missing Michael from here and waiting on the Lord expectant to see ALL His goodness. I am SO very blessed! 

Praying my next circle around the sun brings healing, joy, goodness, purpose, beautiful views, and lots of laughter. ☀️🩷 I love you Michael… forever and always. 

P.S. You can do hard things too!