102 days closer

 It’s been a year since we sold our home and moved to Southport. Hard to believe. But harder is being here without Michael. I have him everywhere though. So many pictures all around, spraying his cologne, smelling his aftershave, daily visits from cardinals, his journals, and his phone (not sure I will ever get rid of his number or phone). 

I look out over the ICW remembering how much he loved this view and being near the water. The sand bar days with the kids, meals at Fishy Fishy, Joseph’s, Rusty Hooks, Mr. P’s and Shagger Jacks. Can’t visit any of them without remembering his laugh, the way he looked at me, knowing I was so so loved and seen by him. 

I am so blessed He loved me like he did. I also know that if I didn’t do the hard work along side of God meeting me in all my hurts and allowing Him to heal me, I would have never gotten the gift of Michael. That is a sobering thought. 

I am so thankful I am not who I used to be! I don’t even know that person anymore because of how God healed and restored it ALL. And the good news is He’s still working on me! We are all a work in progress. 

Even though this month will be a tough one since it’s my first birthday without him, I am encouraged because God’s got me and he’s working ALL of this to my good and for His Glory. Even on my hardest days. 

No matter what we face God has already been there. He knows the end from the beginning. You can trust Him with it ALL. 

#102daysclosertoseeingyouagain 

#iloveyouforeverandalways 

#takethepictures

#makethememories 

#itrustyouLord