Trusting

March 4, 2024

You know, it would be really easy for me to question God and his existence as I see my husband suffer unjustly from cancer. But the problem that I have is that I have seen what God can do. I have seen in my lifetime how God has come through for me and our children. How time and time again he has made a way and how He has provided time and time again. So it’s hard for me to justify turning my back on God in my belief in him because I have encountered him multiple times in my life.  So I’m at a place where I’m trying to reconcile how the God that I know hasn’t yet come through for me and my husband as I have seen him doing in the past.  Yet I know it is totally possible for Him to completely heal my husband this side of heaven. So I wait in FAITH that I know that God can do immeasurably more than all I ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us. So I’m standing on the Word of God in FAITH. He will do more than I can ask or think for my husband.  I know that I know that God is able. And even if it’s not His will to do that this side of heaven, He is enough. 

I mean Michael is pretty awesome. I can see why God would want him with him. But we all need him here. 

But God is still a good God. He is more than enough. I know with out a doubt He can do it. He is not a God who lies and His hand is not short. I believe that God has a purpose and a plan. And His ways are higher than my ways. I believe that no matter the outcome that God is enough. My deepest prayer is that God heals him yet I know that even if that is not His plan. God is a good good God. I have experienced it. I mean He gave me Michael and an incredible family. Proof of His goodness. 

I love you Lord, I am your vessel. Completely empty for you to fill and do all you have for me to do. Please heal my husband completely, take away his pain, the unjust suffering and restore him completely this side of heaven. Then at that point you will get all the Glory because this healing is only possible through you. In Jesus name I pray. 

I love you Michael Shaw. You are the best gift and I am so blessed that you love me.  God gave me you and I am such a better person because of you and your love. I love taking care of you. It’s the best gift and privilege of my life. 🩷😘🙏🏻⚔️🛡️#heismyfairytale #Godsbestforme #shawstrong