May 1, 2024

 May 1, 2024

I read a portion of this today and added to it. It was meant for me to see today. 

People are not supposed to get cancer. This is not the way God designed this world to be. Sin did that to this world. God is the God that sees. He knows what it’s like to be walking through something that feels like it might kill us. We say, God change the plan. I don’t want this to be part of our story. I don’t want to look at these children and see the pain and loss in their eyes. But Jesus sees what we cannot, and He understands. And that’s the place where I need to get to in this whole journey. 

I mean, God, I guess if I knew what you know then maybe I could be brave enough to choose what you’ve chosen. But since I don’t know why you’ve chosen what you’ve chosen. I better stay real close to you. So that you can reveal good to me, the good that you’ve promised would come. And I don’t see it right now and I don’t like the way it looks right now but somehow in the heavenly realms you are shifting and rearranging a good that I would choose if only I could be brave enough to do it. =Lysa TerKeurst

God works ALL things to our good. He is still good. His ways are higher than our ways. Standing on His word. I will see the good in all of this. I will see the goodness of God. God is El Roi. He is the God that sees me. 

I love you, Michael Shaw. Thank you for seeing me and loving me like you did. It will last a lifetime. I love you Forever and Always.